We Lost Our Rainbow Baby

Today was another one of those awful days where you feel like you just had to have been having a bad dream. I went in for my OB appointment and ultrasound, and learned that we'd lost the baby. I was about 9 and a half weeks along. There it was, plain as day on the ultrasound. Before he even said anything I knew, it stopped me dead in my tracks and mid-sentence when I saw there was no heartbeat and no movement. I will be going in the hospital tomorrow to have another D&C since nothing has passed on its own yet. Please pray for us. I'm petrified because last time we had this done I was hemorraging and had a near death experience. They made me sign consent forms for a blood transfusion today, if necessary. I've never signed those for a D&C. Then today they had to draw blood for some kind of specialized blood typing tests so they could have blood on standby for me, if necessary. It's in my records what my blood type is, and again, never had this done before. While she was drawing the blood, it was like watching someone suck through a straw at the bottom of an empty glass. There were tons of air bubbles, and my veins had clamped down and they were DRY. She told me this was because I was in shock....imagine that! They ended up having to stick me like 4 times because after she "forced" it out, the blood was damaged or something so they couldn't do the specialized testing and had to repeat the draw. Drama and trauma....think this shall me my new mantra.